Pippa was only 15 years old when she decided to stand in front of a approaching train. She battled most of her adolescent life trying to look thin and the stress of trying to become thinner finally took its tool. Any kind of disorder has a lot of effect on the psyche of the person and their happiness. When you are constantly trying to be something else, it means your happiness is gone. She suffered such extreme anorexia that at one point she weighed just four stone wrote several ‘goodbye’ letters to her family.
Pippa Katy McManus, who was affectionately known as ‘Pip’, wrote seven goodbye letters in total. They were addressed to her parents, siblings, friends and even her pet dog.
Her family found these notes and put her in a hospital for treatment, tragically, she took her own life by stepping in front of a train five days after being released from a psychiatric unit.
The triggered he family says was that her family argued with her regarding her excessive gym use. The argument ended with her running out of the house shouting: ‘I am going to kill myself”.
One of her notes, according to the Daily Mail, said that she wanted to ‘grow up and have a life’, before continuing, ‘but I don’t have one’.
She then added: “I cannot fight anorexia any more than I have done. I have tried so very hard, but it has won me.”
Her parents, Marie and James McManus, expressed their concerns over her release from with Priory clinic thinking that it may have been too soon. They have now revealed that they had expressed reservations about Pippa being released from the Priory clinic, but felt they were ‘left with no choice’.
Speaking at an inquest in Stockport, Marie said: “Pip spent the last three years fighting against anorexia, malnutrition, depression and self-harm. We believe the failings in our daughter’s care from beginning to end resulted in her death.
“Effective treatment is needed quickly, and if this had been available to our beautiful daughter maybe she would still be alive today. Maybe we would not have needed this inquest.”
‘The Pip Foundation’ was then set up by her mother Marie, 51, to try and help the charity Anorexia And Bulimia Care.
She explained: “Pippa hated herself. She thought she was the ugliest person in the world. Whatever you said, it didn’t make a difference because that’s what the anorexia was telling her.
“We needed mental health workers to work with us but they weren’t there to do that. We were let down by everybody.”
If you’re concerned that you or someone you care about has anorexia or any other eating disorder, you can contact the charity, Beat.
Their adult helpline: 0808 801 0677
Youthline: 0808 801 0711
Their helplines are open 365 days a year from 4pm-10pm.
If you generally feel like you have nowhere to turn and are having suicidal thoughts, please remember that there are people out there who will listen to you, give you advice and support you when you need it. This includes The CALMzone who offer amazing support to anyone.
The helpline and web chat service are open 5pm to midnight, every day of the year. Nationwide: 0800 58 58 58; London: 0808 802 58; Webchat: www.thecalmzone.net/get-help
You can contact the Samaritans on a Freephone number – 116 123. Alternatively, you can email [email protected]